Here we are, 10:13pm Sunday evening. The weekend started out quite positive, but this weekend was once again a big reminder to me that I always need to be on guard, because no matter how well I have my strategy planned for healthy eating, no matter how much good food I have in the house and available, and no matter how good I am feeling about myself or how motivated I am, I always need to remember that I am a very emotional eater, and I must remember that the weather is one thing in my life that can set my emotions off kilter.
As I stated above, the weekend started out very good. I weighed in on Saturday morning and I lost 3.5 pounds this week. That means in the 3 weeks since I have stopped herbalife and have just concentrated on eating for health, I have lost a total of 12.5 pounds. Not too shappy. I was so happy about that. And then I decided to loosen the reigns for myself a little. We ended up going to the mall because it was a cold, cloudy, rainy day. Not typical at all for late March in North Carolina. Normally this time of year we are having highs in the high 60's low 70's and we were very spoiled because last week, almost everyday we hit the low 80's. Then all of a sudden, Friday evening, a cold front moved in and gave us a 45 degree high on Saturday with rain and clouds and today was even colder. I don't even know if we ever hit 40.
That is extremely cold for this time of year. That is actually our typical winter highs. So, we went to the mall and ended up eating in the food court. I ate Stromboli and 2 breadsticks from Sbarro and as I was nearing the end of my plate, I felt sick. I thought to myself, "Why do I eat this crap?" I knew instantly I felt sick. For dinner I did eat the chili I cooked and Sunday was just ok, but I woke up with a stomach ache and I just felt the blues all day. Again, I blame it mostly on the weather, but it made me want to eat bad. Once again, I didn't eat half as bad as I have in the past. There was no fast food (Well, except for the Sbarro), there was no binging, but I just didn't eat as healthy as I have been, I didn't watch what I was eating as close and I didn't eat any fruits or veggies today at all! And when I don't eat those, I feel like crap, as I do tonight. I feel tired, lethargic and just plan bad. I hardly drank water all weekend. I have changed many bad habits and as I always say, it's about progress, not perfection.
So, I guess I have to be happy for what I didn't do and continue to work hard to make more changes. I have to start eating more healthy on the weekends. I have to make sure to eat fruits and veggies and drink lot's of water. But I am actually thankful for a weekend like this. It shakes me back into reality. It is confirmation that I know tomorrow I want to get right back to eating good so I can feel good.
next weekend my goal is to get through Saturday the same way I get through the whole rest of the week. I am doing this despite the challenges I face, but if it was easy, everyone would do it. But I am going to do this this time around. I will not quite and I will not give up!!!! I want my life back and I will fight tooth and nail for it! I am determined. It's the hard that makes it worth it!
Determination gives you the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you.
Denis Waitley
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