Getting it back!

I haven't written now in a couple of weeks, which is very bad because I need to write. I need to keep it in the forefront of my mind why I am doing this? I need to keep reminding myself why I need to and want to lose weight. I have so many great reasons and so much great motivation to keep me going. And I have been going great, but the last two weeks, I have begun to stall and that is bad.

I was so balanced. I was doing so good and feeling so great! I was eating right and enjoying everything that put into my mouth. I was allowing myself some treats that I enjoy and was able to do so without going overboard.

On the 20th of May, I left with some friends to ride our bikes down to Myrtle Beach for bike week. It was a great trip, but I reverted back to many of my old habits. I did not try to "watch what I was eating" for any meals. I used this trip as an EXCUSE to eat what I wanted when I wanted. I really didn't even try to make good choices, I don't know why. When I got back, surprisingly, I had lost 2 pounds from the week before.....Weird.

But the eating continued when I got home and it continued over Memorial day weekend. I kept saying, "It's memorial day weekend." I kept wanting to eat out. And when I got on the Scale Saturday morning, I had gained like 4 or 5 pounds! REALLT BAD!

BUT!!! I am not going to let that ruin me. I slipped, and all I have to do is pick myself up, dust the powered sugar from my shirt and start over without looking back at the train of wings, burgers, McDonalds, Donuts, Ice Cream, Chocolate, Pizza, and everything else that made it's way past my lips. I did it, it's over. Now, clean up and move on, and that is exactly what I am doing today, Tuesday May 31st!

I cooked my Turkey chili yesterday and I packed a healthy lunch. I have only gone to Curves 2 times since I rejoined and so I need to renew my commitment to my work out and to my healthy lifestyle. I need to remember why I so desperately need to and WANT to do this. I need to remember that it feels so much better to be eating healthy than eating crappy. I need to remember how bad I feel when I look at a picture of myself and how much I want that outer shell to dissolve so I can go back to being who I am and having that true self reflect on the outside for all to see!

I have to remember that when I went for my last series of blood tests, how lucky I was that everything was in normal range and how God has given me a second chance to get it right because next time I might not be so lucky!

I just need to keep going. I have lost weight and I can't allow myself to gain it all back. If I keep going and keep plugging, by this time next year, I could be 100 pounds thinner. That thought alone get's me so excited and motivates me to just keep going!

I need to make sure to blog, and for me, it's not about who is reading, although I love the thought of my blog helping others who are having the same struggles, but mostly for me, my blog is a way to release all my thoughts, Ideas, struggles and successes as a way to keep everything real. Sometimes when you hold things in, it's easy to pretend they aren't real. When I right, it makes it real. Seeing certain things in black and white makes it real for me and makes me want to be accountable for my actions!

Part of the reason I haven't been writing is because work has been so busy and hectic, I haven't made time to do it. And when I get home, I feel too tired and discouraged. It's no excuse, so that is why I am going to set 15-20 minutes aside each day to blog. There is never an excuse not to do something that is so important to you. If you say you don't have time, you simply are not trying hard enough and you are just looking for excuses to avoid doing what you know you should be. So, I am not going to make excuses, I am simply going to make sure that I MAKE time everyday to blog. That is it! end of story.

So, I am BACK and I will continue to be successful every step of the way. And we all sometimes stumble and fall, but what is most important is that we get up and keep on going. So, I stumbled, I feel, but now I have gotten up and I am running once again to the finish line! I may stumble again before I get there, and that is ok. As long as I get up and don't let myself stay down too long! It's all good! Life is GOOD!

I will leave you with a few quotes:

“The only difference between stumbling blocks and stepping-stones is the way you use them” ~ Unknown

“If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.” ~Mary Pickford