I DID IT!!!!!

So, yesterday I blogged about this overwhelming drive and a craving to eat something on the way home from work. When I thought about what I had to eat at home, I wasn't interested. All I could think about was some type of fast food or going to a restaurant to get some yummy there. For 3 months I have worked so hard and I wasn't having any cravings like that, I almost felt like a drug addict looking for my fix. I just couldn't identify what brought this feeling on and this morning, I still don't know where that drive comes from.

But what I do know is that I just focused on driving home. It helped that I didn't have my debit card with me, although I did have a credit card, but because I only use credit cards in the case of an emergency, I was able to resist using it to get food. It was hard and so many times I almost drove into the numerous places to eat on the way home and broke my Credit Card usage rule, but I was able to stay strong.

The whole way home, I just kept thinking of all the hard work I have put in to lost 25 pounds and kept thinking that I didn't want to put it all back on and I had so much more to go. I just thought of all the things I am "Going to Get" when I thin. All the things I will get back in my life if I can lose this weight. I will get back all the things I gave up over 10 years ago to eat and overindulge on food that has brought me nothing but pain and heartache, insecurity and so many other negative things.

I came right home from work and I grilled turkey burgers and corn on BBQ grill. I had some guacamole on my burger and it tasted so great! I had asparagus too!
So, I DID IT!!! I over came my strong urge and drive to eat bad, which in the past I have had a really hard time fighting. I usually give in. I feel so proud of myself this morning and that makes me want to be so victorious today! That gives me the strength and the drive to eat healthy today!

I was just watching the news and they had a little clip about people who have weird eating habits. This one woman has only eaten potatoes and cheese for the last 30 years. Of course, she was very over weight and they show footage of her eating her potatoes and cheese, or french fries and cheese and she talked about the fact that she doesn't eat in front of other people. Well, she was really heavy and I looked at her and thought, how bad people look when they are at that weight. And it reminded me of the negative attitude people have towards fat people. I don't want people looking at me like that. I have pride in who I am, but when I look in the mirror, it's hard to be proud of that! I want people to think good of me, not look at me and say, "Look how fat she is." Now, I am not doing this because of what other people think. I am doing this for me! But I would be lying if others people's opinions didn't matter a little bit.

Anyway, I feel like I am back on track. Last night was tough, but I got through it!
I feel good starting my Friday and looking forward to an active weekend! Can't wait to swim in the pool!

Life is good! SO, today I choose ME!! And I choose to eat yummy, healthy food!

Everything I do is by choice. What did you choose today? - Louise L. Hay