It's a Miracle!

Although I have been way off course with my healthy eating, I still weighed in yesterday. My philosophy is that I don't want to stop weighing. For one, my weight totally gets away from me when I stop looking at the scale. It's so easy to be in denial about your weight and the relationship to that and the food you put in your mouth. And second, it's kind of a reality check for myself. I guess my #1 & #2 reasons really relate back to one another. I just don't want to get out of the habit of weighing in because I think then, I totally forget the fact that I am working towards something.

 So, yesterday morning I weighed in and believe it or not, I lost 3 pounds! I don't know how I did it! I have been eating like crap! I ate McDonalds like 3 times last week, I had lot's of donuts, cookie, bugels, cheese doodles and Buffalo Wings dipped in ranch dressing and blue cheese. I just don't get it. 
 
I just really wish I could get on a routine of eating well and not having to focus so much on my food. I just want to not have to put so much thought into my food and my eating. Sometimes I drives me crazy and I get frustrated and I just end up wanting to give up. I need to find a way to have balance in my life when it comes to food. First of all, I have to stop viewing eating as an actual event. Eating isn't just something I do to fuel my body, it's an experience for me that I relish in. Eating should be as inconsequential to me as going to the bathroom. Just a routine thing that I must do to service, but I do it, it's over with and I move on to living the rest of my life. Right now, eating is a MAIN event in my life, and I have to change my attitude about it. After all, the process of going to the bathroom is this.......I get the urge, I stop what I am doing, take no longer than 3-5 minutes tops to do what I need to do, and then I go back to concentrating on what I was doing prior to getting the "urge".  I know this might be a weird event to relate eating to, but I think you get the point. 

The way I want eating to be is, I get a hunger pang in my tummy, I stop what I am doing, grab something nutritious like an apple or a banana or walnuts or something, and then I go back to what I was doing. Meals  have to take a little longer, and need more of my attention, but I should just cook, eat, clean up and be done with it. I just enjoy eating so much that I want it to be a big event. I think about what I want, I think about where I want to go to get it, I think about the person I want to share that experience with. It's all about having a menu in front of you where you have the ability to order almost anything you want, anytime you want it. 

I really need to start using my slow cooker book more to find yummy recipes that we can put in the slow cooker, set and go. When we come home, we will have an all inclusive meal waiting for us! Yummy!