The True Reward!

 I have not written in a few days and I probably should have been. It would have helped me mentally with all that I have been going through. Which really has not been anything too awful. I have just been feeling down about losing my cat, since today is only a week since she is gone. Last weekend the weather was bad and combined with that and losing my Misty, I made all kinds of excuses to eat. I wrote on Monday that I was going to start eating better TODAY, but TODAY never happened. I continued to find a way to make excuses on Monday to continue eating bad. On Tuesday I made efforts to eat better. I got through breakfast and lunch, but dinner was a disaster. The rest of the week pretty much followed suit.

The other problem was, I kept making an effort to get to Curves but somehow, that never happened either. Since I joined in November, this is the first week I totally blew off and that scared me! I can't fall into that very bad h abit of not going.

I was really lazy and I was the master of excuses this week......and for those of you who know me, you all know there is nothing I hate more than EXCUSES!!!! I have no tolerance for them!! They are just words we use to help us justify a bad decision we made so that we don't feel guilty about it! They aren't real....Just WORDS, WORDS, WORDS, NOISE, NOISE,NOISE!! 
 I am hard on others who make excuses, so I am going to be hard on myself!! I am not going to degrade myself. I am going to pick myself up, dust myself off and start on a clean slate, but I am not going to tell myself that it's ok, cause it's NOT!!!! And it's certainly NOT ok if I really want to achieve my goal! There is no room in my goal for excuses!!!!

This week really was not successful for me and my inclination today, Friday, is to say, "Well, I blew it this week, why don't I finish it out with a bang?" Let me give myself one last reward and enjoy something Yum Yum!!

But as I think this, it hits me......There really is no enjoyment anymore in the Yum Yum......After I eat something Yummy, I feel full, bloated, lethargic, unhealthy, sluggish, unattractive, sleepy, unmotivated, useless, unsuccessful and I feel really, really bad.......So, what kind of a reward is that? So, for 5-10 minutes of something yummy tasting, am I really willing to make myself feel so bad in the long run? NOOOOO!!!

The true reward for me is, eating something Yum Yum, but healthy, cause that does exist! The true reward is feeling energized and  healthy, successful and not feeling bloated, or sick or fat. I wrote a blog not too long ago about how good I felt.....I felt thin as I walked down the halls at work. I felt good, happy, full of energy. The truth was, I wasn't really thinner, but the eating healthy and working out had helped me lose the bloated, sluggish, gross, fat feeling and gave me an better feeling so that I could stay motivated to keep working hard...towards my TRUE REWARD!

The true reward is knowing that I have control of all my choices and knowing that I made the choice to be strong and work hard toward a goal that I deserve to give me the best life ever!!!

The true reward is going to curves and walking out, with sweat dripping from my face and all over my shirt, making it saturated on my back and chest! The true reward is feeling my heart rate increase and breathing heavy and feeling strong and accomplished as I do it!

These are the true rewards that last a life time and are more important than the 5 or 10 minute pleasure party that I have indulged in for the last 15 years that has taken away my life. Eating healthy and working out 3 times a week for 30 minutes is the right recipe for a lifetime of healthy, happiness, success and feeling good!!

Give yourself the true reward you deserve starting NOW!!!!