Using Humiliation as a Motivator

I am still working very hard toward my weight loss goals. I am reading over my goal every morning to refresh it in my mind and I am also reading my positive affirmations every morning as well. My goal is read them at night too, but I haven't been as good with that, as I am usually very tired at night and I have been going right to sleep, but I think I will put a note on my alarm clock to remind myself to read my affirmations. I know they are helping and they definitely help me continue to feel confident and excited about my goal.

When I weighed in on Friday, I lost 4.2 pounds. My goal was to lose 3.5, so I did better than expected. But, the weekend was a tough one. I ate out twice on Friday and then twice on Saturday and Sunday I laid around all day and I didn't have a square meal. I kind of snacked all day, which wasn't good at all. At least I had that 3 mile hike on Saturday, but I know I ate more calories than I should have.

Normally, I would be so angry at myself and telling myself how stupid I am for not working harder to be better, but that doesn't accomplish anything. It just makes me feel worse. So, instead, this time I told myself that I am human and humans make mistakes. I told myself to forget about it and move on. Dwelling on it isn't going to change what I did. But what it will do is keep it fresh in my mind and make me mad at myself, which in turn will cause me to eat emotionally out of control. So, I put on my big girl panties and Monday morning I got right back with the program. I ate great and I went to curves last night and burned 668 calories!!

I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS!

I do have a challenge coming up.....and it isn't really a food challenge, but rather a mental challenge and a pride challenge. A friend of mine asked me to go with her to see a musical at a local theater. I want to go so bad, but I almost said no because I am nervous that I might not fit in the seat. I hope that isn't the case, but I am a little scared about it because of my recent incident at the Hockey game......I did not fit in the seat at all....But neither did my friend who was with me who is like a 100 pounds lighter than me, so I think for some reason the seats in that section are smaller, but it really made me self conscience about other seats. Well, I am excited about the show, but inside, I have this feeling of dread that I am going to get there, go to sit down and not fit. Sadly, this takes away from the excitement of the evening. I would be so humiliated in front of my friend if that happened. So much to the point, that I am not sure I would be able to look her in the eye again. But I am trying to get past that. I also called the theater to ask how wide their seats are. Hoping the answer will calm me a little.

So, strangely, I welcome challenges like this in my life. These are the moments that make you so uncomfortable that you know you HAVE to change! Without these moments in life, what would be your motivation to want to change and be more healthy? You would fall into a comfort zone and when you have a 150 pounds to lose, you should NEVER feel in a comfort zone or you will lose your motivation. So, although I am nervous about it, I welcome this. It is also a huge motivation to keep me eating healthy this week and getting my butt to Curves!

It's all good! I feel motivated, I feel strong! I feel successful and I feel confident!


"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can." ~ Unknown Author