Ugh!!! Vacation!!!

Last Friday, the 22nd of April, I left for my vacation to my Mom's house in Florida. In the past, my mindset leaving for vacation has always been, "It's vacation, I am going to enjoy myself and eat whatever I want." But the reality is, I don't REALLY enjoy myself when I eat like that. These last couple of months of eating healthy has really taught me that I feel so much better and enjoy life so much better when I am eating good, healthy, nutritious food. But since it was my vacation AND Easter weekend AND my grandma's 95th birthday celebration, I was a bit concerned with how well I would do sticking to a healthy eating plan.

I am proud to say that the beginning of my week, I felt I did really well. We arrived late Friday night, just in time for Pizza. I did eat two slices, but I stopped there.....Until the ice cream was brought out. Then I reverted back to my old self and I managed to polish off a decent size bowl of ice cream with hot fudge and whipped cream. I don't know what happened. I guess I just got caught up in the celebration of being with my whole family under one roof for the first time in about 7 years. But right after eating the ice cream, I felt sick to my stomach. I continued to have some stomach issues into the next day and so this ensured I ate as healthy as possible at my Grams birthday party. I ate salad, one piece of very delicious chicken, a small bit of rice and that was it. No seconds for me. Then I ate a small piece of yummy birthday cake. Late that night, we went to the pool and I spend about 20 minutes in the resistance pool to give myself a little work out.

On Easter day, I did eat everything that was prepared, but I had small amounts and again, no seconds. Most of my family left on Monday morning and I tried to resume normal eating as much as possible. I just kept trying to remember how crappy I felt Friday night after I ate the ice cream. I won't rehash everything I ate, but I will say that mostly I ate pretty good. My Mom had a lot of candy, cakes and other yummy sweets and although I had a small amount, I know I didn't abuse it like I have in the past. I got on the scale on Wednesday to see how I had done and I had gained a pound, which I didn't think was too bad since I knew I was not being perfect. But it was all down hill from there. From there, we ended up eating out at least once each day and I know I didn't make the best choices. And I did end up getting into some Easter candy.

I returned home on Friday the 29th and I weighed myself 1st thing Saturday and I had gained a total of 4 pounds. I actually planned on and gave myself license to gain 3. So, I went one pound over what I planned on. Not too bad. But the frustrating part is, the rest of the weekend, I had a hard time getting myself back on track. I spent the weekend with the "I'm on vacation attitude" and that is not good. I think I did a lot of damage. But here we are, Monday and I am not going to hold on to what I did wrong. I am trying to redirect today and just make sure I am eating healthy today.

I am having a struggle today. I just ate some chocolate from a co-workers office. It's not so bad if I just move on from here, but it's lunch time and I really want to go out and get Jimmy johns for lunch. I am craving the Italian Night Club Hero, but I know I MUST stay strong. After I write this, I am taking my turkey chili into the break room and heating it up and will just be happy with that! I have to! I have no other choice. I have to get these 4 pounds, and whatever other pounds I put on over the weekend, OFF and I have to continue my weight loss!

I didn't struggle too much, but we did eat Ice Cream two other times....Once at Ben & Jerry's and once at Bresslers and I LOVE the ice cream from both, and today, I guess I am back suffering from a sugar addiction because I am craving sweets. But the only thing I can do is stay strong, like I did 2 months ago, and break the sugar addiction. I know if I stay strong, it will only last a few days at most.

As I sit here struggling with myself to not go out to Jimmy Johns, I am working hard to remember all the reasons why losing weight is so important to me. The one thing that is standing out in my mind is the jeans I am wearing right now. I just got them out of the wash and they feel so comfortable on me. Not too tight and these are the jeans that just about 5 weeks ago didn't fit me AT ALL! I couldn't button them and here I am today, sitting very comfortably in them. That is what I am focusing on in order to keep my mind focused on what else I want to accomplish. Jimmy Johns won't get me what I ultimately want, but eating my turkey chili will.

I think I am good.....I know I am can stay strong. Here I go...Off to heat up my turkey chili and enjoy that more than I ever would enjoy Jimmy Johns!!

I know when I weigh in this Saturday morning, I will see good things on the scale!

It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. ~ James Gordon, M.D.